My Tumblr was in such a mess that I had this impulse to do a cleanup. What resulted was me deleting everything. Now that it’s done, I am kinda having this feeling of regret. I tend to hold onto things quite unhealthily, and I am thinking that this vague feeling of regret stemmed from that. If Tumblr has a privatize feature, I might have just privatized past entries instead, like what I did with my WordPress blog.
Aside from stubbornly holding onto things, I also have this bad habit of changing my mind quickly and repeatedly. I can’t seem to stick to a decision, and this is happening quite a lot these past few weeks. This is bothering me a bit and annoying me greatly. I just wish that I could have the gumption to stick to my guns. I am going to be vague about this so I am not going to cite particular instances, which admittedly is not a great idea because of the way my memory is being holey lately (sign of old age). I might forget the particular instances in which I made a decision but did not stick with it, so I am going to put this number here so that I wouldn’t forget: 88.
I have been noticing a trend in my posts and that is me realizing certain things about myself that needs changing, and then vowing to make those changes, but ultimately not doing anything at all. It sucks and it just goes to show that I really am a huge procrastinator. It’s time for me to stop procrastinating. As I have said in a previous post, I am going to do this. I will.
